Blog 5

Anytime that I am asked to reflect on questions such as these I am always reminded of how a tropical college student conversation transpires. "Hey how are you?" "I'm good, I'm just really tired." "Oh yea me too. I've been super busy this week." "I know. This week has been pretty killer for me too." "I have so much work to do." "I know me too. Well live gotta go, I have to go to a meeting." "Me too. I'll talk to you later. Try and get so,me rest." Since I've been in college I have heard this conversation at least twice a week. This is what one of my friends calls the "Busy Olympics." Who can be the mist busy? And the end of the week who has the right to be the most exhausted? Who is doing the most?

I think that this is so intricately tied into what Ignatius was talking about when he said, we should be indifferent and have the balance of head and heart. While it is so important to the success of a college student to be invoked and stay active, I know for a fact that this can hinder us from truly finding a balance. For myself I have had to consciously steer clear of conversations like this. We are all busy, that's a fact. But are we living healthy balanced lives? That is the real question.

I know that for myself, this has been a difficult problem to overcome. This is the busiest I have ever been in my college career and I find myself letting things fall through the cracks that shouldn't. Like reading my bible, or praying or meditating. It is extremely hard to dislodge the notion that success in life is everything. Especially, when I'm paying so much to get an education.

I think that there are also things in my life that I have held on to that I would find extremely difficult to let go. Now if true Ignatian indifference in the goal, then I'm in a huge pickle,for example, my friends, my girlfriend, good health, family. None of these things are unimportant or frivolous pursuits. But I do think that there is a level if healthy connection that has to be established and if it's not where there you should feel the loss. I do want to live a life that shows how much I am willing to give up for God no matter what it is. I am not there yet, and I certainly have a long way to go.